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  1. Not Today

From the recording Pieces of Me

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About this song………
After all the stuff I’d been through over the last few years, I decided to go on a self-directed retreat. I chose Caetani House in Vernon and booked myself in for ten days. I rented a little studio as well and it was my hope I would write a bunch of songs. I wrote one song – this one. I was frustrated and felt every ounce of the burdens I carried. I started to think that maybe I needed to tell everyone but more importantly, myself that it was okay to feel bad. It was okay to feel sad and miserable. It was okay to want to stay in bed the whole day and not face the world. It was okay.

Lyrics

I’m not going to tell you that I am okay
I know you can see that I’ve had better days
The tears in my eyes and the lines on my face
All tell a story I’d like to erase
So I’m not going to tell you that I am okay
Not today

I’m not going to tell you that I’m doing fine
You know I’d be lying and wasting your time
I could make up a story of happier days
Tell you my troubles have all gone away
But I’m not going to tell you that I’m doing fine
Not this time

But I’m holding hope that eventually
I’ll see these things more positively
I’ll smile and I’ll tell you
That whatever life brings
I can do this, I’ll get through this

But I’m not going to tell you
Today is that day
Just let me linger and wallow away
I’m tired of chasing the demons and such
I’ll hide undercover when it all gets too much
So I’m not going to tell you that I am okay
Not today